Dedicated to AAW-WOW: Beyond Territorial Pissing

The biggest theme of the next episode of XaW Files: Beyond Humanity is vanity, with Carly Simon’s song You’re So Vain central, adopted to the Transylvania theme through self-proclaimed genius wordplay. It inspired a long introduction, and is quite a classic intriguing episode, really showing off my quality fiction writing skills, amongst lots of wacky comedy and rock music references.

My Influences are the Greats

In my personal life I was thinking of the people who think they are such great influences on my life and writing; the then current and now ex, and then already ex relationship/university/work/friend self-proclaimed alphas.

I have given lots of thanks in my books to the people I think deserve it. While I’ve tried to keep non-celebrities out of my books, sometimes I’ve thought of people in my life along the way, some good and some bad.

Some of the ‘alphas’ did have some influence on me, but their negativity usually outweighed it, and it was nothing compared to creative greats I’ve followed in the media, such as Debbie Harry, Jack Kerouac, Terrence Malick, John Sullivan, Sir David Attenborough, DJ Sy, Signum and many rock stars (AC/DC, Rainbow, Saxon, Van Halen, Motley Crue, Guns N’ Roses and The Pretty Reckless have been favourites).

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Territorial Pissing

When I was an Alien
Cultures weren’t opinions…

The above title and lyrics are a Nirvana song. I’m not sure what it’s about, even after looking it up on lyrics interpretations. I didn’t realise its relevance to XaW Files’s X-Files theme until just now either.

The title pretty much sums up the worst thing I’ve felt about the self-proclaimed alpha influence around me, mentally and physically. Mentally, it’s the alphas and their brainwashed victims, who claim something, such as a musical genre or band, even when I was into it long before them, and long before I met them.

Physically, it’s the alphas and their brainwashed victims, who claim I’m going somewhere because of them – even going out to buy food can become an ordeal! Even though I’m a doctor of philosophy, published writer and perhaps minor celebrity, most people still seem to think that I’m doing everything to meet them!

Even though I’ve always been telling my day-job colleagues my writing is my first priority, they still think I’m only going to work because of them, or because I want promotion! Just going in to do my hours becomes an ordeal!

When I’ve been nice and considerate, sacrificing writing time to help out, they’ve usually turned it into a negative, making out I’m doing it because I want to spend time with them, or get promotion!

Even my exercise is because of them! Going out for a run can be an ordeal, or walking and running to work, or taking a bus. People I’ve never met before, and never want to again, all thinking I’m living my life for them!

They made the day-job managers mostly local, so if I go into their ‘territories’ I’m there because of them! One of my ex-duty-managers used to travel half way across the city to go to my local supermarket; one I’d been going to long before meeting her, and she there before me apparently; but I think she still made out I was only going there because of her!

Some are Right AAW-n

I have good memories of my only real long-term relationship – a teenage mid-1980s romance with an angelic woman. There are some women who are correct about me being interested in them more than others – as I’ve written before, the slim (size 8ish) and beautiful, unattached and usually long-haired – but I hope that doesn’t greenYgreylienate others.

I have also been trying to be ethical about it, while others prosper despite/because of their corruption and disregard, such as Keith Vaz, Donald Trump and Russell Brand (on Jonathon Ross last night, despite being probably the worst revolutionary ever, as well as looking like a Charles Manson-style counter-culture sexual predator! – trade in his book and join the XaW Files greenYgreyvolution!).

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Some of my friends and colleagues’ positivity still outweighs the negative. Travelling man AB can naturally travel write better than me; Geordie funnyman SD was funnier than me and work colleague PS was ahead of my time with web humour.

Most of my influences on behaviour over the last fifteen years have been female; nice AAWs in the media, from Alex Lovell and Jane Tomlinson to Holly Willoughby and Keeley Donovan.

In Territorial Pissing Nirvana also sing that women are wiser than men. I agree in some ways, and especially when I started out the Greenygrey, but now think it’s more greenYgrey than that. Women usually have the nicest thinking, but sometimes it can be too nice; so nice it can be dangerous; with the not so nice ready to capitalise – yes, as in immigration etc.

Moreover, returning to the animal world, I think we’re still just like them, with men and women usually acting in unison, sometimes for themselves and sometimes for their families. So while men usually do the action, it’s often at the bidding of women.

Men Create Societies of Gender Fear

However, while that is negative for women, or gender neutral, I also think that men still create most worlds, and if allowed they will often create a world where women need men. I think that’s what happens in the Muslim cultures, where men make sure women can’t go out alone, and convince women they need their protection. However, while they are protecting ‘their’ women, they may be harassing others, making those women depend on their men… who may be harassing the women first mentioned.

While I think the U.K. grooming cases were mainly sexual and financial, they also seemed like a form of cultural war, attacking the women who dared to go out alone, and wearing their normal clothes. The more women who are attacked, the more likely they are to not go out, or only go out with ‘their’ men, and covered up; creating an ‘Islamic’ society by default. It’s also in line with the ‘New Victorian’ of course, which I thought the upper classes favoured when I was in university.

Some individuals are dangerous to women, so it is not always about culture and society. There will always be dangers, as with other dangers, such as on the roads, but politicians should be trying to limit the dangers, the same as they try and limit road deaths and injuries.

Don’t Throw Stones Queen

Positive AAW/greenYgreyliens make it all worthwhile, as I met many recently, in the air and on the ground. In Leeds, Queen _OR/AAW of Kindglade (adaptations) emerged out of history to make herself known to me. I thought I recognised the hair, and then it was later confirmed by two women talking near me, as people often do. In work I have been trying to avoid sexual relationships, influenced by my time in ICS, despite there being AAWs there too. Then there’s the wider world, full of beautiful women, with Hollywood always a magnet.

Does Taylor Momsen think I only want to use her to get into Hollywood, and live amongst warm wealth. In reality I only joke about it, and would live with her anywhere. But maybe I’m too old now for a wild young woman, and should be aiming more for a Princess Kate. Scandinavian and Baltic women could be more sure of my sacrifice, with not much heat in their countries, but they are beautiful, and some are wealthy.

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Anyway, I was just trying to introduce this latest episode. The people I was thinking of when I wrote it all have some good qualities, and I liked them at times, but when I was writing this I was indeed resenting them, and their belief that they were big influences on me – which I think is a form of superiority – the same as thinking I’m going places to see them.

I consider myself a 3-D (decades) genius, flawed in many ways, but good in some. I learnt to be a loner early in life, and that is part of my positive esteem personality. I’d like to meet a beautiful soulmate (woman), but I’m not desperate about it, and am not looking for her every moment of the day, or in everything I do. I’m quite happy to live the rest of my life alone – happier than most people, who do need company and comfort – whether it involves writing, travelling or just lounging.

I big myself up partly for comedy, and partly because I don’t feel other people do enough. In reality, I know there are many great creative people, all with their wonderful little genius thoughts. However, hopefully I’ve lived so much, and lived to write about it, that I can be interesting and different to some people.

If I can save one person (one of my favourite lines from Perks of a Wallflower) from grooming or suicide then it will have been worth it, but I hope to save many more… and maybe even myself.

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Chapter 4 Episode 9

‘Me!’ cried Mary.

‘Then this one’s for you,’ shouted the singer of the New York Dolhascas, who’d prompted Mary’s interaction by asking if there are any mystery girls in the crowd.

The Sylvain Sylvain lookalike’s guitar launched the New York Dolls copy-band into Who Are the Mystery Girls? and the Cluj-Napoca crowd went crazy.

There wasn’t such a great response when the singer asked if there were any human beings in the crowd, and to tell you the truth, Human Being was the beginning of the end for the Dolhascas set.

They did finish on a high though, with a rousing version of Carly Simon’s You’re So Vain.

New York Dolhascas

The rock club calmed down as the road crew worked on the stage, and Doro copy-band Dorohoi tuned their instruments.

The NYD lead singer came and sat with us. I complimented him on the set, and especially their version of You’re So Vain.

He said he couldn’t hear me over the rock disco, with classic Romanian rock bands like Byron, Krypton and Transsylvania Phoenix blasting out of an impressive sound system.

So I wrote it down, like I did above. After reading it he wrote me a response. He thanked me for the compliments, but said their version was called You’re so Vein.

I thought that was a little strange, and looked at him curiously, as if I was suspicious or something.

He did remind me of somebody; somebody even more than New York Dolls lead singer David Johansen; but I couldn’t place him precisely.

I asked him why the spelling was so important to him on another note.

I think he sensed my suspicion, and thought a little time before writing his response. When I eventually read the note it said they’d changed the spelling because they didn’t want to confuse the song with the real New York Dolls guitarist Sylvain Sylvain, and make it seem as if they were singing it about him.

Something About Mary

Mary saw the note, and started writing one herself. I could see it started off saying the Vain-Vein explanation bordered on philosophy; a subject that fascinated her. She passed it to me when she eventually finished, and I relayed it to the Johansen/somebody lookalike.

The lookalike seemed to like what Mary wrote, because he wrote one asking if they could go somewhere quieter to discuss it. I know, because I once again acted as the courier, sitting between them, while Jack and Love were facing the stage, engrossed in Dorohoi’s opening song, a howlingly good cover of Doro’s Cry Wolf.

Mary agreed to the singer’s request, on a note I held in both hands, from right to left. They exited the club together looking in love; rather than at our Love. It was the last time I’d see Mary that night.

Available to buy or borrow on Amazon and some great big bookshops.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/XaW-Files-Beyond-Humanity-Fantasy/dp/1516969065/

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